“Bismillah (In the name of God.”
About 25 years ago, I lost someone who was very dear to me. I felt hurt, angry, and depressed, I didn’t know if I could get over it. However, I was married to a Muslim. During that time, Ramadan came. I decided to experience that month the same way the Muslims do. So, I fasted every day and I also read the religious book which is the Holy Quran.
At first, I thought that it was going to be very difficult because in the previous years I used to fast only on weekends when I was home with my husband. I imagined not eating and drinking throughout the day would be impossible. When I made-up my mind to do it, I decided to experience what fasting is all about. It was not easy, I felt hunger, but it was bearable. However, thirst was a different feeling. It’s hard to believe, after a while the feeling of hunger or thirst went away. My experience was so great that on the 27th day of Ramadan, I converted to Islam.
After my conversion, I felt a sense of peace, happiness and calmness. Becoming a Muslim has brought contentment, joy, hope, faith and a connection into my life.
Does that mean I don’t feel sad, angry, or depressed?
Of course, I do. I am human and in surah 3 verse 186; God said, “You will be tested through your possessions and your persons; and you will hear from those who received the Scripture before you, and from the idol worshipers, much abuse. But if you persevere and lead a righteous life—that indeed is a mark of great determination.” I have faith in God and I know that I will have challenges or difficulties in life so, I made up my mind to live a God conscious life to the best of my ability.
Ramadan is starting March 23rd of this year , I invite you to experience the journey of fasting with me and share your feelings and experience.
” Do they not see that they are tested once or twice every year? Yet they do not repent, and they do not learn.” (surah 9 vs. 126)